I love this song so much. I had lost it for a long time after my computer crashed but I recently found that I had also had it saved on my sisters laptop (that I never use any more). Along with a whole bunch of other songs I'd thought I'd lost for good.

I just finished watching Route 66 today. I want to go on Route 66! I want to go on a road-trip! I want to travel!
If there was a photobook I'd be tempted to buy it for all the pretty scenery + Yamapi etc. It seems like they took some nice pictures while he was there.

Love this song.


And why do vevo youtube videos take so long to load? If they are going to take over and make it impossible to listen to a song not through vevo they could at least make it just as quick as regular videos.

Take it and Run.

I heart this song AND cover to bits and pieces

"I wonder what a mistake is. Even if you're right but the results turn out bad, people call it a mistake."
Finally, someone points out this fact that is so often ignored or simply not even realised by most people. Especially in media outlets. This has been something that has bugged me for a long time but as far as I could tell no one else even acknowledged it. People are often really quick to judge and condemn someone else's actions and/or choices when looking at it in hindsight. I read articles or comments on news stories that criticize something that was done, say, for example, a police officer takes a shot at a criminal on the run. The criminal ends up dying as a result. Newspapers etc. comment on 'bad policing' or unnecessary actions taken by police which resulting in someone's death. I'm not agreeing or disagreeing with that, but it annoys me that had he not taken the shot, and the criminal ended up hurting or killing someone else as he escaped (or whatever), the same news outlets (and even the same people) would be criticizing the decision to not take a shot when they had the chance.
Obviously, its all well and good to make these judgements when you know what the outcome is. But, obviously, before we act, we can never really know for sure what will result from it. In a lot of circumstances there isn't a 'right' and 'wrong' answer. Just options. And you have to make a choice in that moment based on the information you have at the time and what you think is for the best.

Trust it to be a JDrama that I find giving this message. Trust it to be Code Blue. Code Blue has so much wisdom in its writing. There's a lot of heart and a lot of raw, real emotions portrayed in this drama. And the soundtrack is great too. There's one piece in particular 'Mindful Hue' which is so haunting, it just makes everything feel more. The opening and closing narratives of each episode are so true and, in some ways, so simple that we all know it but never really realise it for what it is.

So, I opened this post with a Code Blue opening narrative, and I will close it the same way.

 Sometimes, something happens that makes you realise that this is it. This is what your life is going to be for the rest of forever. Nothings going to change any more. You hit the wall of having options.  And although you've still got years in front of you, you can't imagine anything making a difference. Because this is it. This is your life. This is you. Forever. 

Who knew there was so much to say on want?

I can't figure out what I want at the moment. Well, specifically at the moment anyway. I've never been sure what I want. Which is why I just work part time in a store.

Want is what gives us direction and motivation. You want something, you follow a path to get it.  So without that want, I've just ended up going no where. Even in college and school I wasn't intierly sure what I wanted to do with my life. Its frustrating. And sometimes I fail to see the point at all.

But right now, what I'm specifically confused about, is wheather I want to keep going back to the office or not. I don't think I want to leave, but at the same time, I'm not sure I want to go back. Maybe its just because its been a while since I've done two days in a row there you I've gotten out of the habit. But I was there Monday. I when I went for a break I just didn't want to go back at all. And its not like I was doing anything especially exciting either, just walking round aimlessly.

I have a tendancy to overthink things.


oh, and im upset cos messenger has changed and Ji has gone :(

I started watching Prisoner today. I also finished watching it. Yes, today I just watched all five episodes of Prisoner back to back. It was a pretty awesome drama but thats not really what I'm posting about now. Maybe I will later, who knows.

But now I wanted to comment on something I'm inadvertidly learning by watching Japanese dramas.


Sometimes our word is all we have. And if people, or someone, doesn't believe what we say, there is absolutely nothing we can do about it. It really is scary. You can know for a fact that you are telling the truth, but it means nothing if no one else does. And you can find yourself in a situation that you have absolutely no control over.

If you've seen Prisoner you know why watching it made me think of this. I also thought about when watching Nobuta wo Produce as well as other dramas, even Gokusen. And, yeah, its not exactly a theme of the drama or an important thing in all of them, but since that episode of NwP, I realised how true it was and then started to notice even the smallest hint of it in other places.

To have someone trust you, regardless of anything else, is important.

Because, to not be believed, when thats all you have, is scary.